My mind has been working non stop. NON stop. I'm constantly on the phone calling people, setting up appointments, reading, and trying to figure out our future with what was already tricky with a move to Columbus for Mike to go to grad school and getting rid of our house. Throw this on top of it and life pretty much doesn't stop or my mind.
Autism is tricky because there are a million different opinions of why, therapies to use, and results shown. And every kid in the autism spectrum is entirely different. Kids do anything ranging from a few hours a week of therapy to 40 plus hours. 4o hours? You think I'm joking, I'm not...and we very likely could go that route.
No pressure Ang, it's only your child's entire future on your head. and EVERY decision I made directly impacts his future. If I don't teach him or get someone to HELP teach him things, he will NOT learn them. These things are simple things that most kids pick up...things like, looking at someone when they talk to you, paying attention to what people are doing around you rather than the grass, giving hugs to those you love. All moms need hugs and kisses and smiles. I'm parenting a difficult child withOUT any of those positive reinforcements.
I'm sure there are books out there, but pretty much my book would be titled "Being the mom of an autistic child: the hardest and loneliest job.
If only I could get some hugs from him, it'd keep me going stronger...but I'll just have to settle for me hugging him and having him push off. Sigh.
Sorry for the negative post, maybe I'll post one later today when I'm feeling more hopeful...since I'm always cycling like that.
(oh and Colton has regained some of his language, but mostly still doesn't talk and I can't understand him. At least it's better than last week where we had nothing. This is coming from a kid who was completely talking in sentences a couple months ago).