I remember the feelings of all my hopes and expectations, close that chapter and reflect, and look forward to the next chapter. This move is especially hard.
Allow me to recount the story of this house:
Mike and I moved into this house 3 1/2 years ago. It was our first home. We picked out every little detail and watched the whole building process. Mike and I would drive up 2 times a week just to walk through our concrete slab and imagine just were everything would go. "Here is where we will have our first baby's room"..."he will love this backyard...especially this hill, I bet he'll run up and down this hill," "we'll set up his toys right here!"
Finally, moved in and were as excited as could be. A few months later we found out we were expecting. We used to sit in Colton's future room and just dream up everything that he would be. I would picture rocking to him, watching him in his crib, playing with him.
In Feb of 2009 Colton was born. We were so in love. Colton filled our home with immense love and we became a little family. This house saw it all, baby Colton, the non-crawling Colton, the walking and talking Colton, the stressful mom, the laughs, the tears the joy and the love.
Colton was our dream come true. Just as we dreamed, Colton would run up and down the back hill, I would rock him in his chair...we lived and loved in every corner of this house.
Now here we are almost 2 1/2 years later. We've been through a LOT a lot. A lot has changed. I've spent recent nights at the side of Colton's crib, crying, confused, scared, just looking at his perfect sleeping face. How did this happen to us? Why can't everything just go back to the way it was? But with those sleepless nights have come peace and hope. My hopes and dreams for Colton have been put on a different path. It's a different adventure than what I had dreamed up for the past 3 1/2 years. But, we are leaving this house a stronger family. I have a stronger love for Mike. I have a stronger love for Colton.
He still IS my dream come true. He still is the light of my life and my whole world.
BOY oh boy oh boy how my heart aches for this kid. I hope that in a few years when I'm reflecting back on this next house, it'll be memories of increased understanding for how Colton works, progress, progress, and progress, increased faith in the Lord, a stronger testimony of the Savior, and a deeper appreciation and love for Mike.
Life is a funny thing. So slow, yet so quick. Nothing like you expected, but worse and better at the same time. So, Ohio....
READY or not, here we come!