Sunday, September 18, 2011


I've been feeling very grateful recently, a new kind of "grateful".

I used to say:
"I'm so blessed, I'm having a healthy pregnancy" (when pregnant)
"I'm so grateful, I have a beautiful healthy baby" (when I had Colton)
"I'm so blessed with my perfect little family. As long as we are all healthy and happy, that's all that matters. Everything will be fine as long as Mike and Colton are fine." (over the past few years)

(Everyone at times goes through hard things. Really hard things.)
Well, what about when you DON'T have a healthy baby, or what about when something bad DOES happen? What happens when your family ISN'T the perfect family you dreamed up?...

...when your child ISN'T okay...

How then...can you still be grateful?

I don't exactly have the answer... but I am learning that feeling grateful is not related to an ABSENCE of trials. I know that I am more grateful right now than I ever have been in my life. I'm grateful for Colton. I'm grateful he is mine. If you lined up a million kids, I STILL would pick him. Autism isn't ideal (and I'm still not quite "grateful" for it yet. I am human afterall.), but I don't even care because Colton is seriously awesome and the coolest kid I know. I'm grateful for every step of progress he makes. I'm grateful for Mike, and his ability to relate and care for Colton. I'm grateful for our therapists. I'm grateful we are able to get him the therapy he needs. I am grateful for a supportive extended family. And most importantly, I'm grateful for the peace I feel. The peace which I know only the Savior can bring.

To me, my little family is perfect. And I feel so blessed.
(See, I told you he was awesome. Pumpkin stickers, PJ pants, football, strolling around the hood. )

Sunday, September 11, 2011

The Balancing Act

Life is one big balancing act. As a mother, it gets very tricky keeping all of life's demands in balance. We have children, husband, church, home, work, and ourselves we need to worry about.

Right now, I am way outa balance. In my mind, I feel like I have to give 200 percent of my energy to the "children" category, which leaves nothing for the other categories. While working hard for your kids IS a good thing, neglecting your OWN needs is not good.

It's funny how minimizing our own needs doesn't actually make us more productive in the other areas...for me, it actually does the opposite. The more time I spend on myself, the better and more effective I am in the other areas. Likewise, when I DON'T take time out for myself, the rest of the areas suffer.

So, with are a few things I'm doing to keep myself balanced (aka projects on a student budget):

Project #1: Hoop Wall (completed) $15. Colton's therapy room, needed some wall art, and this was a cheap fun way to do it. That, and we have red couches so it is hard to coordinate with those.

Project #2: Pillows (completed) $15. I also have some yellow ones I made too for an additional $20.

Project #3: New dining set (not started yet). Since the movers lost some of our stuff, we only have 3 kitchen chairs. Living on a student budget, I am going to make this super easy table for $50 and buy these ikea chairs. This table is great because I can make it whatever size I want, it's solid wood, and will take me just a couple hours to make. Total new dining set=less than $300.

Project #4: Curtain (not started) FREE. I also really want to make a ruffle valance (like this, but a valance) out of a sheet for downstairs, but I'm worried my window may be too wide to make the ruffles...hmmm....

And...just is a picture of Colton. Sweet sweet face.
Any other project ideas? Mike starts school in a week, and so I'm going to need a lot more projects to work on in the evenings!